I'm updating thru my phone now. Weee ! What uber madness.

Anyway, benji told me some disturbing news. As well as gave me some rather crazy suggestions. Oh well. I miss the days. I miss benji and the nutty talks we had ! =(

Ah well. He just replied. Later. =/

apathetic ep

Relient K's Apathetic EP has Be My Escape in an acoustic version ! Heard the sample on the itunes store and yes it sounds quite good. =)

Not as good as ATB's Believe in Me(Acoustic) though..

past. present. future.

WangKi's asking for my blog add and RenHao's statement that Wilfred no longer blogs as he used to triggered the bored lil' self in me to re-read my entries.

Nope, i'm not done yet. After i got pass the September 2004 entries, the mere bimbotic/childish/primary-school`ish/irc`ish/cutesy language i once used caused my face to twitch and my mind refusing to let me read on.

Oh well.

From someone who uses minimum paragraphing and irc`ish language to who i am now. Not much of an improvement. I know. Haha.


Oh yea.. Did a rough calculation.. Only 134 days more to go.. Lolx.. Yupz.. Quite soon la.. Lolx.. But that also means that all the toopid exams and tests coming nah.. Haix..

That was from July 2004. I feel nauseous now. Argh. And as you guys might recall, i once posted, on a later date, almost a year later in fact about how i cant stand people who type like that.

Seriously, i think if 2005 me saw the blog of 2004 me, 2005 me would roll her eyeballs and swear off 2004 me's blog. No joke.

Anyway, reading brought back sooo much fun and memories. So much that i think i'll do a most memorable/thoughtful/whatever-i-think-sounds-nice list.

=)

agris de tempvs

Everytime i hear you. There's this mild ache i feel in my heart.

Why is it still there ?
After all that i've said to myself.
After all you've said to me.


Your laughter while making me want to smile and laugh with you also makes me want to cry.

Why do i feel so ?
Despite all that i've heard and seen.
Despite all that we share.
I know your laugh isnt for me.


Maybe. Maybe it's true that..

you've touched my soul

123s

Happy lunar new year people !

Some lil' happenings.

1. I finally bought Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis ! Yayness !

2. Nadine's attached to Khairu already. Hmm..

3. S27's ct claims that S09 aka my cg is one of the most vocal ones around. =)

4. Apple Pie aka my guitar's re-stringed ! Now all i need is to recall how to play.. Hmm..

5. School Road Race is at East Coast Park on 8th Feburary. Might be running.

So that practically sums up my life this week. Oh well.

Because..

Because because because...

I know You're there.

Love ya.



Ps. I realised today that andrew has very rough hands. I still dont understand how skating can cause rough palms. =/

coz i wanna be.

I wanted to blabber bout so many things. But coz blogger was down, i forgot most.

Anyway, what i wanna say before i go off tonight is that, i feel really light today. No burdens, no nothing.

Yup.

Ps. With regards to yetserday, big big thanks to Cassandra, Gene and Lyon for being my guiding lights in time of distress. Love you guys lots. =))

And to Joseph, I'm so very sorry !! Really. Thanks anyway. *wry girn*

Because i'm a mirror of contridictions and fears.

Today is just another day.

So shut up already.

There's nothing happy about it.

faith.

I lost my chain today. The one i loop twice and wear around my wrist.
The one that reminds me of 3 things. Of faith. Of love. Of my commitments.

I have a thousand words to say with regards to today.
But i think i've cried enough already, so i shall just keep quiet and pray for tomorrow (to be a better day) to come.

As lyon says, since God has put me to it, He too will put me through it.

I believe.

worries.

Couple of things bothering me lately.

Firstly, time trials. Really scared. So afraid that i'm thinking of skipping school on wednesday. Haha. Sigh. Okay, it's like, i'm in long jump already, but still, i do kinda want to be involved with the 400m sprint ! =(

Secondly, him. He's reminding me of J. Very unusual reactions and replies. I will NOT play this game with him. At least not when i know i'll lose.

Thirdly, O's will be out in another few weeks. Worried. Very worried. John ! Must prepare tissue for me ! Only thing is, i hope i wont have to use them. >.<

Lastly, Wilfred ! I'm sorry if i pissed you off or anything la. Forgive me ? =/

As we were walking to Tampines Sports Stadium to pick up WangKi's racket. GuoMing led me to realised that WangKi is 17. Hahaha. No wonder he feels different. =/

Anyway, MrYazid didnt seem too pleased about me skipping track to help out with the red cross. Oh well.

I'm having a sore throat (not really sore but more of a 'raw, bloody feel') now due to all the "excuse me/sorry/thank you" i've been saying to the random people. Not to mention that my eyeballs still hurt due to all the shifting about. Making eye contact is the best way to get people to take stuff from you. Yup.

Pps. I was waiting for WangKi outside his chinese class when i saw someone - Tina !! Hahaha. Yup yup. Shrieked a lil' when we sorta "remembered" each other. Got quite a few stares from the people for it too. Haha. Oh yea, Tina, my friend say they inside could hear us lor. Hahahaha. Do pop by more often 'kay. =))

give blood. give life.

This is an appeal for more blood donors and coz i'm too lazy to retype, i shall just copy over directly what i've posted on my school's forum page.

The Singapore Blood Bank@HSA is currently facing a blood shortage. All blood types're needed. As long as you're over 16 years of age, weigh more that 45kg for females and 50kg for males, do check out this questionaire to see if you're eligable to donate blood.

If you have any other enquiries that you need answered with regards to donating blood, you can drop me a message or look for me, Shuyun from 06S09 and i'll try my best to answer you.

Ps. With regards to the common myth, no, you do not put on extra weight when you donate blood. The body only replenishes the amount of blood that is lost.

Anyway, volunteers are still needed for telerecruitment, and in the distribution of posters and bookmarks at various MRT stations this Saturday(21st January) and Sunday (22nd January) to encourage the public to come down to the Blood Bank to donate blood. You can contact Sharon by email at sharon.lai@redcross.org.sg or contact her or her colleagues at 62200183.

Much thanks. =)

random. track

"For Mid D and Short D, your Pre-Season Time Trials would be held next Wed, 25th Jan at 3pm."

Crap. Why must the time trials fall on my birthday ?

Argh. I shall work harder to cross the 1.3m for high jump. Yes i will.

Long jump la. I should just stick with long jump. So much easier.

Shuyun is feeling random today.

You will too if you ran/sprinted on the shoreline.

My butt hurts when i sit down. Ouch.

Maybe i'll be bringing my guitar to be re-strung by Andre this Friday. Maybe.

They posted the trials video on the website. Crap. Please please please please nothing from high jump. Please please please please please. It was so totally embarrassing.

death

3 minute speech tomorrow later in GP.

Topics were selected by months but coz i was late, thus the January kid went last. >.<

Not that it matters, went up front, the first topic on the list was also the first one that i saw - Death - and chose.

Sensitive topic maybe. Ironically, just less than a week back, i found the Sec 2 class photos. I guess the 2e1 people should be starting to get what i'm trying to say by now. *wry grin*

I hope none of you have forgotten him. I hope none of you are as callous as those in the school, laughing, as if his death was but a joke to them.

I hope no matter how much or how long you've known him for, you'll remember all the great times we shared and all the laughter he brought.

I miss those bus ride we took home together where we would just blabber nonsense and then just laugh as if they were the funniest things ever heard.

You know, sometimes, sometimes when i remember him, i can still hear his laughter. That crazy loud laugh that belonged to him and only him.

I still remember the quote i wrote in the book for his parents,

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal,
love leaves a memory no one can steal.


I hope i wont choke on my words later.

333

I actually wrote something rather offensive but i decided to delate it and re-write.


Today during track, wasnt feeling too good. Wasnt smiling and bouncing around enough too i guess. Thus when the sprinters had a break and i joined the high jumpers, that funny-vs-guy-whose-name-i-still-do-not-know asked if i was okay. =/

Oh well. But anyway, after initial sprints were over, we were supposed to do another series of 50m sprints. Then for some reason i shall not mention here, i started feeling really upset. No idea why yet. Haha..

So after bringing our stuff in, for some reason i shall not mention here (again), i started crying.

Thus when we had to go out to do another 2 short sprints, i was well, quite glad. Haha. Was just a short shower, but yea, i guess i needed that. =)


As for my troubles, maybe as Fabian said just now when doing the high jump, "There's no need for fear, just believe in yourself." I guess, as how i should believe myself and overcome my doubts and fears, i should stop doubting about somethings and some people but well, believe in them too.

Ps. Benjamin, if you see this, i'm sorry for leaving before you returned but mr yazid shoo`ed me home. =/

love

Feels like my heart's been ripped out and my stomach's tied up in knots.

Crap. I think what Hachi, Xionghai and Lyon said is coming true !!

Bwwwaaaahhh~~~~~ I dont wanna be in love~~~~

='(

Spinning in My (Living) Room (Again):
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer

As i was on my way to school yesterday morning, i recalled the previous entry's ending - So kiss me - and while doing so, the track on my ipod changed and Kiss Me started playing. Heehz.

On a side note, Shuyun socialized and yes, she now knows two guys from her class better. Hail Shuyun !

Track on the other hand was somewhat traumatizing. I'm now in the long jump, and coz i joined jumps, they transferred me to sprints. Madness i tell you, madness. I also was forced to try the high jump and well... I'll tell you what happened if you ask. So bloody embarrassing.

Oh and i also realised that Andrew from 05S29 only joined track less than 3 months back. It's so darn amusing watching him do drills coz you never know when he'll accidently kick off his skater shoes. =P

Ps. The uniform i wore on monday is the temasek one, only thing is that i was wearing the st. pats tie instead - they so totally match. =P

Pps. My timetable on monday is screwed. I've got first 2 periods Gp and last 2 periods Chinese - only. What's bad is Chinese is at 2.50 to 4.10 . Yayness.

sundered.

Spinning in My (Living) Room:
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer

I'll miss ya.

Btw, met my cg for the first time today. Seem like really quiet people. Shuyun shall be friendly and blabber`ful tomorrow !! Yay !


Sigh. Actually, i'm really tired of all this. That stupid smile i slap on daily.

Wednesday after track, it was still raining, Joseph went with me to the grandstand area to sit. I just felt a need for the rain.

There i spilled some stuff to him. In a quite upset tone and so he tried comforting me. Something about Joseph calms me. His voice i guess. And his "okay lors" while so reminds me of someone. *wry grin*

Then afterwhich, just for kicks i told Joseph that "i'm gonna ask the next bunch of people coming up are they in s09"

Soon, two girls walked up and i did as i said. Yup. One of them were. Joseph went off shortly after that to pick up my stuff (which was left at the canteen with the other j1 trackers) thus i repeated my question to the next girl that came, but sadly she wasnt from s09 this time. =((

Spoke for a while when she suddenly went off. Rather awkwardly too. I later realised it was because all the j1 trackers came up (the fact that they're all guys did not help =/).

There Khairi asked if i was upset.

Kenneth: She sure bad mood la. See the can, squashed till like that.
WangKi: No la. She slap till like that one.
Me: Yea lor. I keep thinking that's you mah. So slap, slap, slap till like that lor.

Yea. Slapping WangKi on a regular term. Too bad after the schedule sets in i wont be seeing him again.

Unless you're talking breaks. =/

But still. It's like when i want to take a breather, i realise that i have no chance to. I'm running out of the energy needed to smile all day.



so kiss me

once more.

I hate you for lying.

But then, you didnt really lie did you ?

After all, you didnt say a thing.

Yup. That's right. You didnt tell me anything.

What do i even know about you anyway ?

Maybe i shouldnt have bothered trying to find out.

So what if i knew now.




I wont let you make me her replacement. Never will.


Get out of my life.

hcl. bball. vn.

The hydrochloric acid is starting to digest my stomach again. Ouch. Shuyun shall go scout for food now.

To those in tpjc, basketball trials're today, according to Jin Rong, there're 28 sign-ups and it'll be a 5v5 match or something.
Now dear people, please go down to watch the J1s trash the J2s - If the J2s DID accept JinRong's suggestion that is.

Ps. If not og 15 can always go to support our dear og`mate JinRong while 16 can go support Wang Ki. *inserts random bitching about track on monday*

sch. track. chronos.

Dont ask why i'm up at this mad hour. I dont know either.

So here i am, 1 and a half hour before my usual "time to wake up".

Argh. I think i'll end up sleeping later. And i'll be having 3 lectures today - Bio, Chem and Math. Rawr. So unfair. Why cant i wake this time tomorrow where i've practically nothing.

Oh yea. I've decided to take Bio, Chem and Econs for H2 and Math for H1.

Weird combi i know. I only saw 4 people signing up for it. Oh well. Hail Shuyun !

So anyway, while i was pondering about the poor thing i'd be later since EVERYONE i know takes Math 2 and not Math 1 it turns out that Math 1 is with Math 2, so i'll likely be hanging about with the guys from og 16 again - Afterall, Joseph and Khairi're the only two J1 trackers nearby.


Ps. Big thanks to Joseph and Wang Ki especially for - in the words of Wang Ki- "wasting an hour waiting for my friend with me" and not complaining yesterday.

Pps. Tabitha is a lucky girl. =P

Ppps. I dont think individual shoutouts're possible now. I mean, not when i just got acquainted with another say 10 or so people on monday. *Smacks head*

Pppps. Note to self. Snap Wang Ki when he does not notice and use his pix as my display pix to annoy/irritate/upset him like he did to me. Hail Shuyun !

open. flick. twilight zone.

Choices choices choices.

Blackice

Silver Sunrise

Brass Sunrise

Copper Sunrise

Not to mention the blackice slim looks gorgeous too. Argh.


But the more i stare at the copper sunrise the more shivers i get. So beautiful. Sigh.

macro

My number 2 baby.



Anyway, note to Johnny boy, i re-joined rock climbing. And surprise surprise, the captain(if i'm not mistaken) is joshua (lee)'s sister.

Can life be any more interesting ?

To: OG 15

We rock.

I wont say we were the best among the rest. Indeed when i realised i was actually in 15 and not 16, i was well, rather disappointed - Especially after i tried to talk to you guys yet was given the so cold response la.

Yet, tonight was a blast.

To my damai seniors in the finale band, you guys were the ones to thank. Got the whole bunch of us jumping after everything ! *grin*

Oh yea. You guys improved a WHOLE LOT !! =P

Special shoutouts to Cheryl my dance partner for the mass dances, Kenneth Liong and Tiffany, Mr. and Mrs. Pink Panther, Lewis and Gordon for the awful tail we made for Kenneth, you guys so totally ROCK !! x))

Kkkz. I'm way beat now, besides, i need to charge my batt so that i can upload pix as well as update my MSN contacts. x)

Individual shoutouts shall be posted when i finally get enough sleep. Rawr.

Ps.
Big big thanks to Gerald la. Told you i love you tons le la. Next time we meet, i'll give you one round. =P
And to Andrew too. For being one who stays in sengkang, studies in marine parade, coming down to tampines to pass me the tie when you were so tired was way nice la. Much thanks. Lunch's on me la. =)

nicholas

Is it just me or does like tons of people resemble him ?

the dreamer

You know you've overworked when you dreamt of serving the new customer a dirty hand towel and thus was shocked awake.

It wasnt as bad as the last time when i dreamt of myself eating sunny side up eggs happily until the thought of the high amount of cholesterol i'm consuming caused myself to wake and sit in fear. *wry smile*


Happy new year people. May your all face coming challanges with courage and faith.